In welcoming 2008 which I believe is a bit too late (since we are almost a month in the brand new year) I’ve wish to share my journey throughout 2007. I have made a promise that I must begin scribbling in this blog before I drain out of ideas thus I need to get going again. I’ll wrap up my 2007 journey in one single entry, can ah??
For me, there’s nothing excited celebrating a new year. Call me what ever you want, but the fact is I have never had any new years resolution since my young days up till now because I never believe in one. I try to appreciate life as it is and never hope that it will be as good as plan. If I wish to achieve something I don’t need a resolution. I just work for it and with god blessing, hopefully what I dream off /wish for will come true.
Last year Along sat for his SPM, Angah with her PMR, Alang in his primary 5 and already had to wear glasses just like the father and little Adik in her primary 2. As usually when school reopens, hubby and I will take the whole week break to attend to the children requirements. I’m forever excited to see the children in their smart new uniform. My brood changes their uniform every year unlike my time when I only had a chance to change my pinafore once in three years. So you can imagine from a loose-fittings to a skin tights pinafore before I could get a new ones. When I was in primary, it doesn’t bother me much but as I enter my secondary level, sometimes I do feel embarrassed when I had to wear the washed-out pinafore. (sigh)
When school reopens, I am the one who is excited to wrap my children’s schoolbooks, writing down their names and arranging the books into their respective bags. I know how happy the kids are to see their mother’s concern over their school stuff as I had once wish that my mother would do the same to me (but she never did). I would remind the kids over and over again on school rules that they have to adhered to as well as my own rules concerning their play and study times. Now I’m becoming like my mother who likes to nag me on study huh?? but the different is I don’t yell or shriek at my kids but instead I tell them in the most appropriate manner acceptable to the kids. I want the kids to enjoy going to school and not afraid of getting scolded when they make mistakes. Children makes lots of gaffe don’t they??
Relating it to my very own experience, I can’t afford to make mistakes. The punishment is unbearable. As young kid, I can’t understand why my mum is harsh on me but I guess she is stressful dealing with her state of affairs at that point of time because I did the same to Along.
How I wish I were more lenient with Along during his primary days, probably he will not end up as he is now. But its too late to feel sorry as I could not turn back the clock. I can only hope that Along will complete his studies and sits for his SPM examination. With god’s willing, he did not create much trouble during the year and ultimately sits for his exam last year.
Angah is a contrast of Along. She's a book worm. She is very hard working and determine to score straight A’s for her PMR just like when she was sitting for her UPSR. I was quite disappointed when she requested to switch over from an Islamic stream to an ordinary school during her secondary two but perhaps there’s a blessing in disguise. My daughter was very attached to us and her other two siblings that she requested to move out from the hostels and be close to her siblings. I agreed to her request and I know I have made the right decisions. When her result was announced late last year, she made me cried when she scored 8As and reduce my savings by RM1000 that I’ve promised her!
Alang and Adik are forever playful but obedient when it comes to study. Last year Alang had to start wearing spectacles and has showed remarkable improvement in his studies. All this while I failed to notice that his poor vision was the caused of his lacking in his studies. I had high hopes that Alang would follow Angah foot steps to achieve straight A in his UPSR but as I said earlier, I shall not pressure any of my kids into fulfilling my expectations. As long as he work hard and tried his best, the result is insignificant.
Last year we did not go for any vacation except for a fishing trips during the 1st term holidays. The rest of the weekends were spent at KP just to give ways to Along & Angah who will be sitting for their exams. Angah had to attend her tuition classes almost every sats & suns as no “ponteng” was allowed. Furthermore, this young lady would shed tears if she missed any of her class.
We had planned a trip to Taman Negara Kuala Tahan during the year end school holidays alas the weather condition did not permit thus we ended up “lepaking” at almost every shopping complexes in KL. Otherwise, the kids would just spend their time with all the games available in the house (PS2/pc games/vocable/cluedo/saidina/any more guys??) and last but not least we enjoyed Angah’s Korean Drama CD collection until 4.00 am.
I had also venture into a new hobby that has now become my side income. This was one of the reasons why I did not have the time to update this blog. I enjoyed beading works and had gradually bead for my own garments. I had initiate a website to display my collections and had since been updating regularly. Surprisingly I had received lots of request for my beading works and ever since the fasting month, I’ve been attached to my bead works.
But most of all, I have enjoyed every single day while the kids were here with me. Once SPM ended, Along came to join us and was on job hunting. I was glad that he manage to secure a part time job with KFC. Hopefully he will change to become more responsible persons.
As for my working environment, nothing much has changed and I’m still enjoying myself with what I’ve been doing. Except that I’ve improved my interpersonal skills and communications with fellow colleagues. I no longer easily get annoyed with inaccuracy by irresponsible human who does not take their contractual obligation seriously. I’ve learned to be more forgiving and accept the fact it’s difficult to change ones attitude and bad habits dies hard.
My marriage knots entered its 18th anniversary last year and I thank god for blessing me with such a tolerant soul mate. Oopa! thanks for sticking with me through thick and thins, showering me & the kids with so much love and attention. It requires loads of patience & perseverance to sustain this marriage and I wish that we will make it till death do us apart. Basha Yoo Rin!!
Now my journey of 2008 has just begun but I hope I will always remember the footsteps that I’ve left behind. Cheers
